Where For Out Thou?

Whew. Its been awhile huh? Well not really but long enough for me. Im getting back in my groove, making some things move and shake. My ideas are out numbering my funds so those great ideas are at a minor road block. Call it a mind fart. Those around me are prospering which I love and that drive my friends have motivates me. I saw one of my good friends Aayrin at her bday party a few Fridays ago and she has been so blessed and she is doing her thing. I LOVE IT!! My faboulous sister was featured on Fashion Bomb Daily as the Bombshell of the day. I was too hype for her!! (I told her I was gonna  submit her but shes so swift and she beat me to it!! But dont tell her I said that :-) So all in all I am just getting some ideas together trying to figure out exactly which way I want to take my jewelry line. It seems alot of people are attempting to make ear rings and such also. I dont want to be the girl selling her feather earrings on Facebook next to the person selling the Jordan heels. Thats not a kosher look homey. Anywho as Shayla Janel would say. Stick wit me, ride wit me, prosper wit me. Hasta luego. Thats Spanish for "I'll Holla!!"

Watch The Throne... If Only I Was There!!

So yesterday musical icons Jay-Z and Kanye West held their extra exclusive listening party at the Hayden Planetarium in NYC  for the most anticipated album since... well since nothing. This is all Ive been waiting for, but I cant speak for anyone else. *Kanye shrug* So on my Twitter I follow the hilarious duo @itsthereal and they provide a link to probably the best review of the album yet. Seeing as there were no cameras, phones, tweets, twats, skips skanks, or scallywags allowed. Bloggers and journalist kinda just had to take notes. Which they did. It brought out the best in music, even my boo thang Lyor Cohen was there!!

Jeff Rosenthal of the Village Voise described it as "Betther Than: any listening session I've ever been too" and I believe him. Like it or love it, hate on them if you must, but respect them you will. And I'm already saving my peenies for when the Hova and Ye roll the thrown into Houston. Where will you be watching the Thrown?

Click the link for your taste of the greatness.

Eternal Reflection

It seems like that my thoughts scurry around the most when its bed time. They say an idle mind is the devils playground. But tonight I'm gonna look at it as God's blueprint. Ideas to try and set fourth into motion. Emotions that no longer need to go fourth. A map back to myself because the last one I had honestly had me living in the land of the lost. Sometimes its hard to do something when you have been on habitual hiatus of doing not a damn thing. I give myself and others that same line though, "I'm trying". When I know damn well... I'm not. Its kinda like the lie a person tells over and over so they can make themselves believe it. Kinda like the use of "I love you". I don't want to look at the man in the mirror and then say what I see, because the eyes lie just as much as the mouth does. But the heart tells it like it is. I want to be in a room full of people, and still be able to see myself. Amongst the greats, the beautiful, the well-rounded... The happy. I know now that to be able to see those things it starts with self. I need to ask my heart, "heart? What makes you beautiful? What makes you well-rounded? What makes you happy?" And I want my heart to answer me, "You".

Sitting Next to Nothing

"The times I found myself the loneliest is when I was sitting right next to someone." - Brooklyn Carter

He asks, "why do you take me on this emotional rollercoaster?" and the only thing I can think of is "shit, you forced me on so why should I ride by myself?" Its the little things that matter that get over looked the most that always receive the largest amount of attention. If that made any sense. If you understand it, than more than likely its your little things that get over looked.

The headaches, the spinning room, the delusion, the nausea... Of love. But its not supposed to make me sick, so why am I sick of it? You loose yourself in the one you love only to find that that person was never really there. You only take up a small part of their world, their heart, their mind. But yet you take up all of their bullshit, their lies, their inconsiderateness. Damn, love is starting to sound like the fat kid being bullied.

I need to stop this ride to nowhere. Or at least re-evaluate my passenger, make sure this person is worth sitting next to and riding with, if they are gonna actually be there. Otherwise they just taking up space on my ride.

And if thats the case, I might as well ride by my damn self.

Whats the Return Policy on Love??

Dear Love,

I need my damn money back!! In fact, I need my money, time effort, all that shit. In the original form of payment of pure emotions.

As a woman I'm inclined to express myself to the person or persons of whom the expression is originated from. Basically, if Sally Sue pissed me off, me and Sally Sue need to have some words.

One would think it would be the same with the person I "Love". Yea, not so much. You see he fell asleep. Right clean smooth in the middle of dialogue. When a person feels they have acquired something, and you feel it has become yours because you have invested all the necessary things to see it flourish, (in this case it would be time, patience, sympathy, empathy, compassion and so fourth) you feel you should receive a return on such investment. Well in this particular case I just wanna return it. Giving up and giving in are NOT the same. And its better to do one than other.

So make sure when planning to invest in a person, you get an equal return on all you have invested. Or you will be listening to a motherf*cka count sheep while knee deep in your emotions.

None Before Me, None To Come

I guess when GOD tells you to get on the ball, you GET ON THE BALL! I finally made my first pair of earrings that I am sooooo very proud of. After 2 years of talking bout it, I'm finally being about it. With the courage of myself, and my lovely sister, my vision has come to pass. She got me out of bed on my off day and we had my first photo shoot that came out THE BOMB.

So this space will be a place to display my work, share my emotions, and capture my greatness and growth. I have arrived.

Open For Business!